It's the Easter holidays & the children are off school. We're having a lovely time enjoying simple pleasures & it's given me time to reflect on how stressed I used to be during the school holidays.
I wanted my children to have every inch of energy I could muster so I used to do all that
I could to be with them as much as possible.
I was obsessed with routines & wanted to know as much as I could about their development so I was addicted to books like The Contented Little Baby & The Contented Little Toddler.
These books helped me to feel like I was prepared & able to cope. The reality was that I wasn't prepared & wasn't coping very well at all. I'd had SPD when my son was born & was then diagnosed with under active thyroid soon after. My daughter was a toddler & my husband & I were trying to run a business together. It was a really difficult time & we were both really stressed & anxious.
It was around this time that I discovered meditation. I used to grab a minute whenever I could (generally in the bath) to listen to guided meditations on You Tube. My passion for meditation developed when I began to feel the relaxing impact it had on me.
4 years later I studied Mindfulness & now continue to practice mindfulness daily. Mindfulness & meditation have totally changed my life. I really wish I'd known more & done more when the children were younger but unfortunately I didn't prioritise my own wellbeing at that time.